Internal Conflict

The old is fighting a battle, its weapon apathy and procrastination. I have days of a true need and desire to be open and embrace my lessons, and then days with a head of excuses. My resolve I must be open and fight for this, even though my thoughts have been more towards opening, and listening quietly to those whispers of truth. I think essentially a real openess and desire should be the catalyst for change for the seeker, but the old holds on and tries to talk to you like a mother when you are going out on your own for the first time,but it all plays out internally the struggle that leaves you exhausted. Baby steps, Heart Open, Eyes Open. Breathe, Love, Be.