Monday, September 23, 2013
This past week was a hard one, a real test of my resolve on a lot of issues. A week filled with difficult ridiculous stressful issues, that by Friday had me a shaky ball of anxiety about to blow. I voiced this vulnerability to DH and he provided what i needed- extreme understanding, kindness and love, Thankfully. If you read my last couple of post, you know that i am delving into pursuing my passion full time soon, and for a while. I am sure that this leap contributed to my week of anxiety last week. I make natural handmade body products, soaps, lotions, balms, and potions with passion, and intent. I know what it means to me, and how much i put into it, but I sometimes question if i am putting too much faith in my creation, a lot of people are doing what i am doing, am i really adding anything? Do people really care about what I am trying to provide, what i am trying to do? with everything going on in the world, does it really matter? This past weekend, i set up at an Art Festival, many many people came into my booth, many lovely people that were very kind, and then an older man came in, full of light, and energy, mine was waining, he questioned me about my ingredients and processes, we talked, he lit up, clapped his hands, and proceeded to buy tons of soaps, oils etc... I went to give him his change of about 15.00 and he refused to take it. He looked me in the eye, and he said "I need for you to know that what you are doing matters, that what you are doing is important" He said "You are so thoughtful and conscientious, and that is rare, i want to acknowledge and reward that, i appreciate you" I thought I was going to cry. These are things i try to say to myself to keep myself encouraged. Dont get me wrong, i have many wonderful customers and they are very complimentary, and happy, but the intensity of this interaction. I can tell you he was sent to me to assure that i know that i am on the right path at this moment. I will never forget those words, i can't, because it does matter. I love when Angels show up, at just the right time, and leave a little of their light behind. I strive to be that for someone else.