I have been generally aware of my Chakras as a whole during meditation. I have never worked individually on my chakra, or been completely aware of their individual purpose and meaning. For those of you with a developed deep awareness of this, this post will not hold much interest for your I am sure. My first short meditation started with my Sacral Chakra located a few inches below your navel. This Chakra is orange.
Here is just a litttle information with regard to what the Sacral Chakra controls:
When in balance the sacral chakra offers us; Self Respect, self esteem, confidence in our abilities, a sense of freedom.
Imbalances are caused by restriction, Withdrawn behaviour/wanting to withdraw, destructive feelings, dependency, waiting, Low self esteem, low sex drive, difficulty communicating with other people (particularly the opposite sex). Denial of pleasure (not just sex), Martyr behaviour.
When I started working on the sacral chakra, it felt like quite the accident, no intention initially, and it was brief. I visualized the orange disc, spinning, I noticed it was spinning very slowly, it was a dull orange color, a little muddy. Following a guided meditation I pictured the SC and imagined it enveloped in light, white light, the green light of healing, a violet light, a golden light, and back to a white light. The meditation was dealing with intimate relationship with your partner, as well as relationship to money, I was interested in this due to the fact that I have a tendency to push money away on some level, which goes back to my Deserve Post. I realized that it also goes back to a vulnerability. You really cannot in my opionion experience an acceptance of affection, and abundance without a degree of vulnerability, and perhaps a childlike ability to not question whether you are worthy. I knew the sacral chakra dealt with relationships to a degree, and issues surrounding those relationships. I am sorry to again be so lengthy and rambly here, but on I go, and I must back up a bit. There have been many changes in my work environment new people on board that i do not mesh well with, to the point of me putting up a wall and building resentment towards others as I found their energy and way of being off putting. It was likely uncomfortable for everyone as I limited my interaction. It made me angry at myself that i chose my old "shut down" method of dealing, but their energy seemed so strong and agressive that i felt assaulted by it. Okay now I am getting to the point here. After spending that brief 15 minutes meditating and working on my sacral chakra, i came to work the very next day, and through no consciouss decision on my own, i felt a lightness, like magic all those resentments, anger, heaviness had somehow fallen away. I not only dropped all those walls and feelings, i actually let them see me, and let myself truly see them. The only thing I can attribute this to, was my brief work on the sacral C, healing those wounds that were there already, letting myself be vulnerable and trusting that my energy was strong enough, and light enough to not be damaged by others.
I want to do more intense work on my chakra, using crystal healing, as well as essential oils to maximize.
I am really interested in literally getting to the root. I have started working on my root chakra, and will spend a good amount of time on this, as I truly do want to deal with issues that are holding me back, and welcome abundance and trust into my life. My work started this weekend, getting back into nature, mountain biking. I will discuss the Root Chakra next post.