Solstice and Vulnerability

One definition: capable of being physically or emotionally wounded.  In turn I would stand to reason that when one is vulnerable and allows one self to be wounded, that great transformations can be achieved. 

Just had a wonderful solstice journey with generous Pixie Campbell dealing with access point and crown chakra. I felt my head tingling, a peeling away, a blooming of lotus, an expansion of crown. A nakedness, a connected-ness with the power of women, dancing naked, individually, and in unison, across the surface of the earth with sun beaming, and holding us up for our acknowledgment and gratitude. Dancing in forest, no one spoke, but i could see their faces, and then we were all the same, as we truly are. Real vulnerability must be present for connection to occur in my life. 

Happy Summer Solstice to you light beams. 

This week has been heavy, and long, i am weak, i am tired, i am loved. My body and mind are spent taking care of two very ill loved ones, no sleep, but i chose to honor this day, in my own way wrapped in my quilt, dark room, candles lit, and journeying to Pixies Tank Drum. 

Abundance

This is what I desire in my life.  In all ways. My meditation lately has been on opening myself wide open with the light of that. The claiming of that. It is not easy, but it is time. Not just abundance, but connection, and open heart, an open mind to give and receive the light of others in an effortless way, like food for the soul. This weekend we are set up at a show with our body products which i am passionate about, and so invested in. I knew that i had to shrug off the cloak hanging around me lately if I intended to connect with people, and let them see my light and passion. Otherwise there really is no point. It was very effective, my meditation, and visualation. My intention as it were. I felt alive and lit up like 10,000 candles burning bright. My connections were meaningful, some had a lot to do with my creations, and some had nothing to do with them, and I want that to be what it is about, not just financial abundance, but abundance of spirit. It was bouncing back to me all day, even in the sweltering heat.

Meditation/Prayer is so key, it makes my life make sense, and something I need to do more often. Steve and I are at such odd places in our lives, and I suppose it has a lot to do with age, and what you will and wont accept in your life, nothing major, just peeves that no longer seem acceptable. Meditation has helped me with this, I want my marriage to stay strong, it is stressed right now, because on occasion things are contrary to what i need in my life because of two strong personalities. Feeling like i am backing up and giving in to my Leo Man.

I have decided that even though I am clear on what I desire for myself and my relationship, we are two people who want what we want, and need what we need, but to make things work compromise of the highest degree is in order. When I meditate I open myself up for compromise, and a way of being with my partner that serves us both, and he has made a commitment to do the same.

So Abundance is my wish, my prayer, my goal, my intention, and Abundance it shall be.  Wishing you much Abundance of every fashion in your journeys.